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many ten years do we have in a lifetime?
Because I was young and inexperienced, I thought by leaving my family members, I
could have a free life.
Out of curiosity and ignorance, I fell into the drug trap when I was 17 years
old. Other than that I was also involved in other criminal activities to get the
money I need to buy drugs for myself.
At last I was caught but was also lucky as the judge let me off with a fine and
a warning as that was my first offense. |
Man often days after experiencing an incident, he will have a life long
wisdom on that matter, but to me it was more of “the good scar forgets the
pain”. Although my family sent me to Singapore to work, I actually did not
learn from my past lesson. I continued with my unseemly behavior, with my
drug addiction recurring, and I could not free myself from it.
In despair, an uncle (which later I came to know that he is pastor), led me
to a gospel drug treatment center! Several months later, I thought that this
rehabilitation method was not effective; therefore I gave excuses to leaves
the center.
Good times do not last long, soon I fell into the drug addiction trap again
and because of the drugs I was full of negative thoughts and this worsened
until I suffered from neurosis. I was involved in drug taking, dealing with
drugs, and also theft, all of which caused me to be caught and imprisoned.
My life revolved around going in and out of prison and the hospital…Is my
purpose of living revolved around taking drugs and being imprisoned?
I did not want to burden my family and disgrace them again and again. Thus,
I borrowed some money from my family to try my luck in starting a new life
in other place. But at last when I ran out of money, I carried my traveling
bag to sleep in street corners, parks and under the bridges. I lived like a
wild dog with sorrowful heart, full of tears and disappointed with myself.
At that time I remembered House of Victory. I begged my father to send me to
the House of Victory, and allow me to live the remaining years of life in
there!
After I joined the House of Victory, I was full of hatred, often scolding
and accusing them of controlling my thoughts and life. But the people in the
House of Victory believed in ministry with compassion for example, they
prayed and showed patience with other practical acts of showing care and
concerns, all of which finally brought down my wall of self defense.
Gradually, I changed for the better.
How many ten years do we have in our life time? After several failures in my
life, I finally repented and stepped out from my painful past life. Today, I
purposed in my heart to use each day of my life to serve God and help others
who are trapped in drug abuse. I want to tell those who need such help that
Jesus has not forgotten them.
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